hi.my name is rhutwik pohekar.i live in chittorgarh . i am blogging today for the first time.i am 16 years old and study in elelventh class.today i am writing this blog to tell what i am going through right now.i am basically good  studies ,i got 87% in 10 board too.but i lack in any kind of public speaking.in class 10.but everything isn't going right in 11th.i am doing fine acedmically ,but now i frequently get depressed.i feel sad about my height ,its 5.4"and i am one of the shortest boys of my class.i am niether physically strong.i sometimes think i dont have any kind of qualities in me.i dont like myself.i dont have confidence to go and speak before people,i do not take part in any of the co-curricular activities in school,i am not good at sports.i know to play piano,and our school frequently sends children for music competitions, but i hesitate to tell my music teacher that i know piano,so the only thing i know well besides studies cant make me popular among classmates.

as evryone must have understood by now ,i lack confidence.some of my teachers and my parents have identified it.my teachers believe ,such depressions may well put impact on my perfromance in annual exams starting in march.my parents say that i just need to have self respect  and like myself, and everything will be ok. but i dont find any reason to like myself.

anyone who reads my first blog will think that i am a sadist,an emotional idiot,but believe me i was not like this few months before.i was  a happy teenager with everything going smoothly for me.i just want to overcome depressions and be like before,so i decided to blog.